4 Beautifully Raw Tunes from “The Healing Project” | Samora Pinderhughes | TED

Oo, fire da da. Higher the higher higher. I built a castle out of dreams and pretty scenes. I woke up and it was missing. It wasn't real. I live in a country that tells a good story of ideal things. But meanwhile, they tell you for difference. If you say what is real, will really listen. I've been saying things I don't believe. — I don't believe — doing things that just ain't me. — Knowing that this can't continue. — Sorry. But I keep on living the same way. — Well, you didn't know me then. I wasn't nobody's friend. I wanted what all to be in good company. to run around breaking things and never think about fixing. Where does it come from? Where do we learn it from? young man, come down from that tower. It isn't yet your time. I'll tell you, 5 years later, you made it out alive. Blame games going to lead to that bill. For real, it's such a thrill. You might get lost in the darkness. I'm sensing so much anger. Where do you put it all? You made best friends with danger. It is inside your walls. Someone's catching it tonight. You lose your pride. You let it rain down on show you're heartless. Cuz you're a man. It's what you do. And it don't matter what you've been through. Yeah. You're a weapon. Yeah. You're a gun. You ain't no father. You ain't no son. You might be canvas. You might be paint. Just hide that damage. It fade away. Yeah, you're a menace. Play out your role and loop that record and lose on the count of three. Am I going to hurt somebody if I feel these things? Is it going to hurt me? On the count of three, I can feel my heart is running. If I let it sink, will it just erase me? masculinity.

Are you going to let it go? The ego that remakes the world, that destroys the world. Don't let me fall. No, no, no. Don't let me fall. Sometimes I pray that we stop building digital worlds, bombing people, little girls, start feeding people, empowering people, value in collective ways of living, making our existing world an ecologically and emotionally healthier place to live. That we might refuse to enrich ourselves if it comes at the expense of another. That we might reduce the distance, stop turning people into objects so we can justify what we do. Face the impacts of our actions. That there might be a haunting in that and that we wouldn't turn away. But what do I know? I'm just a human with a song to sing, with something to say, with something to say. There's some things that I don't want in me. So, I try not to think about it. There's a lot of ugly things in my heart. I just hope to the Lord I don't sl You feel me? Said there's some things that I don't want to make. So I try not to think about it. I just hope to the Lord I don't sleep. I wonder what it's like to let it out. That part of me that I'm so afraid. It holds on me and me about doesn't seem to be something I get away from. Tell me hiding names, wellkept secrets you never say out loud. Why does the body see these demons? But keep me from calling out. I guess I'll just say it's a proess. One day at a time, there have been weeks when find — I came back every time. When you ask me what's wrong, you might think I don't hear you. That's not the case. I just might not respond. I don't want to be near you cuz I'm so ashamed. I just keep the TV on and just let it wash over all of these many fears and hope I wake up less weary tomorrow morning. Tomorrow morning. Please God, I guess I'll just say it's a pro one day

at a time. There have been weeks when I already lost it. But I came back every time. Don't save yourself. Learn to live with yourself. Don't hurt yourself or anybody else.